love me
cold summer nights
silence, resilience, sanctuary
28 December 2008 @ 11:25 pm
20 October 2008 @ 12:24 am
Hellooooooooooooo Juvy! After almost 1 year of abstinence sa paggamit ng blog na ito, here I am! :D
hahahaha. why did I stop using this blog? hmmmmm....
(let's see... my previous blog is about.. and the other blogs are... )
i see. hahahaha. puro drama kasi eh :P
pati title ang drama. hahaha. sige let's change that.
sooooooooooo. this is my blog. again. so are the other blogs i have.. in blogdrive, blogspot, xanga, tabulas, etc. YAY.
hahaha.
so, what's new?
nothing much. I'm spending my sembreak here in Singapore. Is that a good thing? Hmm. well, for me? Yes it is. It feels good to feel that you are free from anything, even just for a while. :)
however, going to Singapore means spending 3 weeks with my mom and dad. which is okay, but kinda gets out of hand sometimes. (my dad went out the room a while ago, nagging about sleeping late) oh well. i think i can handle them good enough.
so. what are my plans? well. ate promised to take me to the Avenue Q show on Nov. 4th, or 5th, i'm not sure yet because i think we're going with her friend, Dang. We went out today. We just went window shopping and strolling at the Esplanade. Woooh. I can't bear staying in here at our house becauuuuse it's supeeeeeeeeeer dupeeeeeeeeer boring. :/
oh well. i'll have to log out before my dad goes out nagging again. (ate went inside the room already. tsk)
good night!
hahahaha. why did I stop using this blog? hmmmmm....
(let's see... my previous blog is about.. and the other blogs are... )
i see. hahahaha. puro drama kasi eh :P
pati title ang drama. hahaha. sige let's change that.
sooooooooooo. this is my blog. again. so are the other blogs i have.. in blogdrive, blogspot, xanga, tabulas, etc. YAY.
hahaha.
so, what's new?
nothing much. I'm spending my sembreak here in Singapore. Is that a good thing? Hmm. well, for me? Yes it is. It feels good to feel that you are free from anything, even just for a while. :)
however, going to Singapore means spending 3 weeks with my mom and dad. which is okay, but kinda gets out of hand sometimes. (my dad went out the room a while ago, nagging about sleeping late) oh well. i think i can handle them good enough.
so. what are my plans? well. ate promised to take me to the Avenue Q show on Nov. 4th, or 5th, i'm not sure yet because i think we're going with her friend, Dang. We went out today. We just went window shopping and strolling at the Esplanade. Woooh. I can't bear staying in here at our house becauuuuse it's supeeeeeeeeeer dupeeeeeeeeer boring. :/
oh well. i'll have to log out before my dad goes out nagging again. (ate went inside the room already. tsk)
good night!
stay put and smile: singapore
put on a mask: 
groggy
groggy25 December 2007 @ 01:14 am
isang tao lang ang pinagbibigyan ko ng mga gantong klase ng sulatin..
oo ata. iba na to.
bahala na ko sa buhay ko.
oo ata. iba na to.
bahala na ko sa buhay ko.
put on a mask: 
blank
blank02 December 2007 @ 12:02 pm
Dear Chum,
I remember the time when I left you. You said you also wanted it. It's just now that I realised you wanted it more than I did. You just waited for me to make the first move. It sucks that you did that. I never wanted to leave. But then, things change and sometimes, they just surprise you. Just like the way you did to me.
There's a lot I want to tell you. I guess you know how hurt I am when you kept the fact away from me. I know you wanted her. I just didn't expect that you guys would lie to me. Lies are inevitable, but for you to lie to me? That's just surprising. I've changed a lot, since the time we parted. I do things that I don't do before, and I'm actually having fun. But, somethings missing. You are missing. I can't deny the fact that no matter how much I have fun with my friends, I still miss the moments when there's just the two of us. Sitting beside each other and happy. Contented.
Maybe, that's what I'm really looking for, the person who would make me happy without really doing anything. Someone who would send me a one-liner message that would make my day. Someone who'd call just because and someone who'd drop by just to say he loves me. Someone who'd do the things you used to do for me before. I miss you so much honey. But then. I'm not really sure if I really want you back. I know you're happy with who you're with.
I am happy for you guys. My love and my bestfriend. Together. Perfect. Both of you means a lot to me. And I'm glad that you found happiness in each others' arms. Seriously, I am. I am fine. I'll be fine.
Maybe, this is just a fact I'll have to accept. I need to live with it. With all the love I have for you. And when I meet that person, who could make me forget, I know I won't forget you. But this time, I'm gonna have to say. I'm letting it go. I'm letting myself go. All the hope I held on to, I'm letting them go. For you and for me. I'll always love you, no matter what. It's been a year and half. My future is waiting for me. A part of me wishes that you're there. But I'm not going to put my hopes up.
See you whenever, Chum.
put on a mask: 
nostalgic
nostalgic15 October 2007 @ 08:35 pm
do i really want that sembreak? :| i don't want to have those idle moments again. I don't want to celebrate on my birthday because I know I'll be waiting for him to come again. Just like before. Craaaaaaaaap. I hate this. Hahahahaha
Dammit. I've been living THE life for the past few weeks. After a looooong while of deep repression and depression, I'm actually having fun. But I don't think it's enough. Oh well, I have lots of things to think about, but then, at the end of the day..................
Hmmm. But I'm happy. Seriously. I'm single, and I'm not hurting anybody. That's good. I'm having a good time with my friends, and I'm enjoying everything that I do. From the work, to acads, to my sorority, and my family... everything.. I'm so happy. :)
content20 September 2007 @ 07:58 am
I do stuff that I shouldn't be doing. I hate myself for it, but I can't help it. It's like I want to get used to the pain of whatever I'm going to see. It's something I have to live with. Apparently, pretension is not helping me while I keep it all inside. It's hard, you see, whenever I start to remember him again. It's like having a cardiac arrest, I'm caught off-guard. And no matter how other people try to reach out to me, I just can't hold on to whatever they're giving me, because I just can't let go of him right now. Not now...
put on a mask: 
pissed off
pissed offhum a tune: orange sky - Alexi Murdoch
12 September 2007 @ 11:17 pm
Nakatulog ako sa bus. As in, REM stage na. Nakakahiyaaaaaaaaa. Hahahaha. Kasi, pagdating ko sa terminal ng Buendia, ang tagal pa magpuno nung bus so I slept muna. Feeling ko, 10 mins pa lang akong nakakatulog, at pagdilat ko, ayun. Nasa Laguna na ko. Wow. The best. Hahaha. Di ko talaga nafeel yung biyahe. Siguro sobrang pagod. Sobrang lakad din siguro ng mp3 ko. Hahaha. Funny thing is, I forgot to pay my fare. Hahaha. The bus conductor had to ask me pa, before I went down. :| Super duper nakakahiya talaga. Wuuuuuh. Most embarrassing moment. Yiikees. Super pagod na din kasi ako. Naman. Almost 24 hours na kong gising. Dire-diretso, review, exam, meeting. What do I have to do? Gusto ko lang naman talagang matulog. Hahaha. Ayun. Toxic. Super. Nafifeel ko na siya. Ngayon pa lang, di ko na maintindihan kung alin ba talaga ang uunahin ko. Hayy. Sana maaccomplish namin lahat ng kelangan gawin.... :| haaaaay.